Sunday, June 12, 2005
Half day
today it seem like half day for me cos i onli work until 2 pm. Bought a pair shoes from far east plaza. cannot control myself, my urge of buying shoes. i onli manage to control myself to limit myself to one pair of shoes. but now i feel like buying the other pair!!!! errrr..... the angel nad the devil of my heart is now fightin. although i just gt my pay but then this month i had too many commitments. Father's day and my mum's birthday are just side by side each other. I nw still troubled what to get for my mum.
Thought that to get her a watch, cos the one tat i bought for her during the last last time ... ( dunno how long ago ) had a crack on the screen. i should i give her an ang bao like the last mother's day. but i think she will use the money on the family expenses than treat her better.
hai... my mother is this type of person... my mum is workin and also a housewife. she will do all the housechores b4 she went to work. i think she had over work herself but she had to do it to support the family together with my dad.. she have the panada eyes and i think she is abit skinny. one thing i must say is that she can cook very well, i loves her food!!!
anyway while i m still think wat to get for her and also the struggle between the angel and the devil, but i think i will still get the shoes b4 i regret the most i bring bread to eat during break time. haha...
Realization
noticed that humans tand to bully the weaker side of the human when they are in group. mayb it is because they are in group, they have more courage to bully ppl as they know that ppl in the group will also support them. Some ppl is just wan to follow the trend, example: the trend now is to teasing this person, almost the whole company is doing it, therefore they also do not wan to being left out during the discussion abt this person. recently i realise that i had done sth like that although i didn tease the person but i join the the discussion of discuss the person. i had regretted very much and also felt pity for the person. i feel so weak as i didn tell the group not to do that even though i believe they wouldn not listen to me.
when people are alone, they are very weak, will tend to think of themself and also protected themselves first. even though they know that it is wrong to do that but they will not voice out, as they scared they are being targeted by the group... i had done quite a lot of things trying to redeem myself. but i think wat is done is done, that is no way to redeem n also i am not able to recover the pain in the person heart.....
to this person: I am sorry...